Here.

Here I am, writing once again. My heart has not been in it. Nor my mind. I just think "why would anyone want to read what I am writing?" It is nothing earth-shattering, or shocking, so I just have not been able to get my heart in it. Jacob is turning one tomorrow. Lilly would have been 5 yesterday. So I will make this short, and post again tomorrow as I have fall break. 

Happy birthday sweet baby. Thank-you for making me a mom, for giving me 5 amazing weeks to share with you. I loved every minute of it. And the pictures of adoration radiating from your dad, your grandparents, your aunts and uncles, just are priceless. We miss you more than words could comrpehend, but know that you were just to much for this world, to perfect to have to see or face the ugly that this world seems to show all to often. Thank-you for allowing us to know you. We love you 

baby girl.