I stumbled upon an amazing blog. It made me cry. It was about one courageous little baby girl, and her 6-7 month fight with liver disease. The funny part about crying is that Collin is just so sympathetic. This is how it usually goes down.
me: sitting on the couch, bawling my eyes out. Jacob in my lap, looking up confused and bewildered, and concerned, all at one.
Collin: Momma, are you sad?
me: Yes, sweetheart, momma is sad.
Collin: It's okay momma, I kiss it better.
Have I mentioned I love this kid?
But I sent that sweet mom a letter. Because I know better than most what it is like to love and lose, essentially. (I say essentially, because I have lost them for now, and my heart yearns for when the time will come when I can hold the two of them in my arms.) Think about it, imagine those who are near and dear to you. Now imagine having to say goodbye to them, knowing that they are just fine, but not being able to call that person, or text them, or see pictures. I do have my own way of communicating with them, something I would never share here, because not only is it sacred but you all might see me as more nuts than I already come off.
Back to the note though. I wrote to her. It was long. Probably one of the longest e-mails I have ever written or sent. I will publish tomorrow what I wrote her, because it would be the one post to read that has our whole story (mostly, well as close as you can get.)
Did I mention my camera broke for good? Yeah. It's gone. Deciding what to do. I am thinking of going SLR. I think especially since my in-laws just gave us a couch, so now we will not have to buy one in the spring, so I am thinking of going for the nicer camera. We will see. I think it would be marvelous. And maybe I could learn a trick or two and make us money on the side (I am thinking while I am in PA school.) Anyways, I am off. I will be posting "the letter" tomorrow, so come back for that.
me: sitting on the couch, bawling my eyes out. Jacob in my lap, looking up confused and bewildered, and concerned, all at one.
Collin: Momma, are you sad?
me: Yes, sweetheart, momma is sad.
Collin: It's okay momma, I kiss it better.
Have I mentioned I love this kid?
But I sent that sweet mom a letter. Because I know better than most what it is like to love and lose, essentially. (I say essentially, because I have lost them for now, and my heart yearns for when the time will come when I can hold the two of them in my arms.) Think about it, imagine those who are near and dear to you. Now imagine having to say goodbye to them, knowing that they are just fine, but not being able to call that person, or text them, or see pictures. I do have my own way of communicating with them, something I would never share here, because not only is it sacred but you all might see me as more nuts than I already come off.
Back to the note though. I wrote to her. It was long. Probably one of the longest e-mails I have ever written or sent. I will publish tomorrow what I wrote her, because it would be the one post to read that has our whole story (mostly, well as close as you can get.)
Did I mention my camera broke for good? Yeah. It's gone. Deciding what to do. I am thinking of going SLR. I think especially since my in-laws just gave us a couch, so now we will not have to buy one in the spring, so I am thinking of going for the nicer camera. We will see. I think it would be marvelous. And maybe I could learn a trick or two and make us money on the side (I am thinking while I am in PA school.) Anyways, I am off. I will be posting "the letter" tomorrow, so come back for that.
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