A Change

Once upon a time, almost exactly 4 years ago, I was very much broken. There were days I would just stay in bed, right until I absolutely had to get up. I was lost in my grief, and after a month of this, I decided to blog. I had been introduced to the concept from our friend Shauntelle as a way to keep her loved ones and  friends informed as their daughter Kaidence (Ryker's next door neighbor at PCMC for 6 weeks) fought for her little life and thought it would be very healing. It most certainly was, and now, some 480 posts later, I am still blogging. I never really did this for any fame or to become rich, although there were times I was offered money from a few companies to place ads on the blog, but I ever really felt like that was the direction I wanted to take my blog in, with a bunch of annoying (we are talking not even remotely cute) ads that would just muddle up what I was trying to say. This was one of my first posts. It was raw, and I was just wanting to express 100% what I felt and why I needed this blog. I needed those comments, needed to feel validated, needed to feel the strength others gave as we grieved our babies, went through the hells of adoption, and than the roller coaster of bringing Jacob into this world.  But as things finally settled down, I received less comments, and it almost made me sad, especially since I did not know what to blog about anymore as we had a miracle in our lives, which meant nearly zero comments. And I know that there are not as many that read this anymore, and that is okay with me. And I am okay with where our little blog is.  After reading this article, I honestly felt like i had been smacked in the stomach with the truth of the article.

So this will be the last post with comments. It is not that I do not like the comments, I just feel I am at the point where I need to ease off the addiction of blogging and the internet. I do not want to look back in ten years and think of the ways I could have spent more time with my boys. You can always contact me by e-mail littleforeverfamily@gmail.com, but forgive me in my lack of posting here as I started back school yesterday and need even more to get off the computer, spend time with my babies and do some homework when I can. Thank-you for the love, for the support, and the many many comments. They really kept us going sometimes, and I would not be where I am without the support they offered. We will still update, as we can, because it helps us to record what our boys are doing. So until later.....